am i wrong

i don't know what i want

what should i do now

everyone is happy,but i'm not and you too

haiz

R.I.P 4.12.10

4.12.10

i will remember this day ever and ever

the most important day for my life

i really feel so sorry to you

so sorry my dear

i already cried and cried so long,i cant believed i will cried in front of stranger

i thought i very strengthen,but i was wrong..i'm not strong at all

your leaving i will not forget,i swear,i hope you can live well where you are

please forgive me,i really love you so much

but i cant too selfish,i cant just think about you but ignore other things..

that's was my fault

i really cant give you a good life

i still have so many problem have to solve

family.....

so sorry

i thought i can face to anything

originally,i can not 

....

i really wish the happiness god,lucky god,Aladdin,doreamon will always be my side...

i don't know IF i decide to do what i want

i don't what will happen on you and me

isn't both of us will happy more?

am i right?

I fucking don't know!

i hate my feeling,i hope human can live without any feeling

i hope that i won't have any feeling

won't sad,unhappy,cry and happy

because really din't have any happy thing will happen on me

maybe i need to blame myself,why i want to birth in this world..

remember what you tell me today?

i won't forget...

i will keep in heart,because you're too over...

i ask jac,does she trust hers bf?

she said half half..but i don't think so..

actually she is same like me,she no dare to say that world

i ask her,did she think b4 when she already change single?

she said no

but many things will change..

i don't believe forever

...

i hate you.

that's all.

累

真的真的觉得好累

才跟老鼠说起

我们的朋友们都有自己的生活圈子

读书的读书

喝茶的喝茶

但我们呢？

我只知道工作工作

在我的环境下

手停等于口停

我不会抱怨这不好那不好

只会听天由命

其实我真的很想继续读书

但我并不想浪费我能赚钱的时间

有时候真的很想好好的休息一场....

chinese

好了！从今天起开始用回华语写部落格了！

虽然朋友说我的英文不至于太差，但他们明白，不过我还是用华语才像我，对吗？

哈哈

渐渐的就快过了大半年，我竟然还完成不了自己的心愿

忽然间觉得自己

“怎么那么失败啊？”

买车，买屋真的不是说买就买

买容易，供就难

这么简单的道理谁不会啊？

20岁已经围绕我近半年了

我竟然还一事无成

什么都做不到

好想好想找份轻松，工钱多的工作

我不是怕辛苦，我只是怕压力

20之前我都不会为钱烦恼

现在呢？

呵呵呵呵  

我不是贪慕虚荣，只是想靠自己的双手让家人无忧无虑

想趁年轻打拼出自己的事业

但是，说就容易，做就难

我人生中，最恨就是有钱人家的小孩和我说

“最近很穷”

真正穷的滋味你们尝试过吗？

我不是羡慕也不是妒忌

只希望上天能公平一点

我已经牺牲了我的时间

为何不让我得到应有的回报

最近有人说我

成熟了好多

不像一个20岁女孩会想的东西

人，是会长大的

好像好阴沉似的！哈哈

不过这就是我的生活！ 

confuse

I don't really know what I want actually...

Sometimes I will emo without any reason

Sometimes I will happy without any reason

i feel myself are so weird,i meant my feelings

a little thing likes today i eat something good,it will make me happy whole day

if i get a bad news from my office,i will emo whole day

especially my man- mr.jansen ngan

 i really proud of him

1st. my temper are so bad and hot,he can endure

2nd. i will scold and get angry faster when i'm not feeling well,he can endure also

3rd. i will argue with him although i know i'm wrong actually,but i still want to win,he also din't say anything

but,the god is fair

no one is 100% perfect

that's why i said i don't know what i want

i hope everything will be fine 

i hope everything smooth 

 my health

my work

my family

i can feel myself about my body

its getting weak and weak

my body really have many problems 

and i don't know what is the problems actually

it makes me suffer like hell everydays!

my work was gave me too much pressure

i wish i could have 2 days off the phone and have a sweet dream at the night till morning

my family.......its complicated

but,YOU did hurt me that time..i'm sorry because i still treat you like shit..but i cant control myself,every time i saw you in the morning,i will get angry,but i know that's not your fault..anyway,i really have some time to forget it....please forgive me..thanks

i hope i can control my temper more..i wish.